I believe that at time everyone needs someone to talk to and listen to. Someone who will give their undivided attention, and not necessarily for any particular reason. I've been home from my mission for almost a year now and I haven't found a single person that I can have that kind of relationship with. I'm not saying I haven't made friends, but noone like that. My friend Ivy has always been there for me and I know she would definitely listen, but she is also busy very often.

It's hard to carry on like that. I've found myself spending a lot of time at school especially last week. I don't really have much to do there, but it keeps me from coming home and feeling down cause I have noone here.

On a different note . . . I went to the temple for the first time in a year last week. That was pretty important for me. It was the last barrier I had in my spiritual path. I think I'm almost back on track now, or at least it should be easier for me now.

I'm getting dizzy a lot lately. I'm not sure what it's from because it doesn't only happen when i stand up now. Often it happens when i turn my head. I also think I've been having minor acid and dxm flashbacks.

My life seems directionless right now.